sorry i will have to upload the photos on the next post
because i'm using the computer in school now =/
having like a 2 hour break before i go to the next lesson.

I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING MY LUNGS OUT.
i feel so trapped.
i feel so upset
i feel so hurt
i feel depressed
i feel so ________ (fill in the blank with an emo word)

so weird. my surroundings are other students laughing at
some indian youtube video which i admit is quite funny.
but for the past 2 days whenever i laugh too much i feel like crying.
like all of a sudden.
no it's not stress.
it's just. him.
i saw him on tuesday.
it just made my heart drop.
and that hole i've been trying to cover up feels emptier than ever.

i'm trying to push it out of my mind now.
like trying freaking hard.
so so so hard.
during chem lecture i dont know why but my tears just fell out of my eyes.
just like that.
maybe because i pushed all the stuff too far inside my head
that it all got stuck and floated back up.
=/ i just hope it goes away soon.
real soon.

but i'm going to be strong though.
i just wanna do well in my studies
and that is what i'm focusing on right now.
church,council,studies.
that's all i want to think of.

here's a video that i find super funny. :)

i had a sitch laughing at the monkey.
SO FUNNY OMG! hahaha
but on a sidenote i think the guy shouldn't have spat at the monkey.
i don't blame it for retaliating HAHAHAHA
this video cheers me up la.
maybe it'll cheer u up too if u feel sad. like me :(